Ok, so this being my first blog attempt and my being clearly untrained in the art of the wordsmith, I will attempt to amuse and dazzle myself with the depth of my inability.

I am still uncertain of a few things in life and wonder why good things dont just fall in my lap. Maybe this is just because I havent been paying enough attention to the small (and sometimes quite large) details of my life. I sometimes find myself so overly concerned with what I dont have that I can't see the many great things i do have. I suppose there are others also who feel this way? Maybe.

I would really love to be earning a good living just by staying home helping my kids grow, but it is slowly becoming clear that my wishes will not come true. I continue to leave the house for hours and hours just to bring home enough to pay the bills and put food on the table. I am missing out on my kid's lives and I really hate this system we are forced to conform to.

I say this but there are clear and lasting benefits to the process such as the fact i am teaching my kids that you need to work for what you want and then really appreciate what you have.

So what do I have? I clearly have a good job that keeps the money flowing in, I also have two fantastic kids, both of whom I could not imagine my life without, I also have a beautiful wife who loves me despite my faults, and I have a great home despite the never ending reno's.

Maybe if I keep a photo of a tropical island on my visor, a place I can escape to in my mind when life gets me down and try to remain focussed on what I have rather than what the advertising media is trying to convince me I need, maybe then I can truly be content.